I’ve taken on two challenging jobs and have become one of those tediously self pitying people who, when asked how they are, sheepishly say “busy” and change the subject.
I find myself remembering those grade 7 health videos, where they tell you that alcoholics can be anywhere, they can be successful people with a job, and you might never know their secret. And I think, but how come I don’t have time to be an alcoholic? And I fantasize about keeping a flask in my drawer at work, showing up at meetings quietly drunk, going home to television and Coors Light, all of the stereotyped scenarios that those volunteer actors warned us about.
And I don’t mean to belittle alcoholism, I guess I just want to be destructive and let things fall casually apart. But that will always be hard for me. Harder than that time in grade 7 health class when….
